I don't know how God talks to you....but to me....He has never blinded me with a great light and put scales on my eyes, He's never put me in a fish's belly, He's never knocked on my head and said "Hey Tommy, this is God, listen up...." So far its been thru answering prayers and small still voices.....but the small still voice is a problem......I'm hard of hearing!!! Early on the 20th, I got up and starting walking around MCG. I told God that I didn't understand......why Paula, of all people.....why not me? These words came to me...."Ya'll have got some things that I need to teach you." Ya'll meaning all of us that have prayed, cried, and have been touched by Paula in a special way......and there are many that she has touched. The main message for me was "Yes, you love and cherish Paula, and you do put her on a pedestal.....but the problem is, is that over the years, you have placed importance on things around you, that are REALLY not that important, thereby.....raising them up to Paula's level....it's not that you've lowered her status in your life....it's just that NOW.....you have made all those less than important things....important, so that you've elevated them to the same level as Paula." The words came to me that we do the same thing with God....we love Him, we cherish Him, we put Him high on a pedestal far above all other things in our life, but as time goes by......we elevate all the less important things in our life so that after a while.......those things have been elevated up to His level, so that now, He is just in the mix with everything else in our life. Paula's healing will be dependent on how quickly we learn what God has for us thru this situation!"
I told Lanis this later that morning, then I felt like sharing it with Ed and Virginia Turner that night.....Leigh and Chuck had come in, and Leigh was in their with us talking and listening to my story.....when I got thru telling Ed and Virginia......Leigh said "Daddy, you're not going to believe this.....but this afternoon at about 1:30, Chuck was at the house praying about this situation, and God told him that this thing wasn't about Paula......that God had a lesson that He needed to teach the rest of us......"
This was the confirmation to me of His small, still voice........